Dear Oniichan

How are you doing? I'm doing alright...I guess. NO I'M NOT ALRIGHT! I'm in pain...I have a hole in my left hand so It's wrapped up. I had to put rubbing alcohol on it. It hurt so bad I cried. The hole came from a blister. I got a little frustrated with a conversation, I'm tired of everyone playing match-maker just because I broke up with Skylar. Well out of frustration, I slammed my hand on the desk and popped the blister and now I have a hole there. I may have trouble typing, or feeling happy, but I still am strong...sort of...I been skipping breakfast and lunch lately because to me, looking for you is more important than eating. Sky has been yelling at me a lot lately about skipping meals. I could really care less the pain I go through. Just remember that I love and miss you. You are an amazing brother...I never will have a big brother for real, I have an older step-sister, and 2 younger step-brothers coming my way August 10th. I even get to be a bridesmaid. Of course I will still be going to high school alone because Kailey is half-blind and gets bullied too much, but I think I can handle one of the worst high schools in Texas. Kailey was going to take me to Illinois with her, but it's her stupid dad that's taking her, so I can't go because he is EVIL!!! I wish I could visit you, I love you deep in my heart. You'll be my brother until the very end. If you need to contact me, my email is krazykasip@gmail.com.